Today was just so long. And I don't know what to write for this take home. I just want to sleep. But I have just over three hours to bang out at least four pages on this take home, and then we'll finish going over the last two philosophy questions, and then I will hopefully have time for a shower before we go write the final.

There's something about Doctor Who.

It's hard to put a finger on it exactly. A lot of people will say it's adventure, it's wild, it's scary, it's an escape. But something about it strikes me really deeply, which is unusual for a TV show.

I always get pretty emotionally invested in fictional characters, whether book, movie, TV show, or whatever. I cried when Sirius died, and in A Walk To Remember. I ship characters and get really happy when they finally get together. But there's some quality about Doctor Who that's hard to place. Maybe it's because what it's really about is a lonely man travelling the universe in a blue box. Episodes like Journey's End just knock you over the head with that because the TARDIS goes from this:

to this:

They go off and have adventures and learn about life and the world and save people and planets and universes over and over again, but in the end the companions leave, or forget, or get lost, and it's just the Doctor again, alone.

Maybe it's because of scenes and quotes like these:
"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don't always soften the bad things but vice versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant."
"Look at the sky. It's not dark and black and without character. The black is, in fact deep blue. And over there: lighter blue and blowing through the blues and blackness the winds swirling through the air and then shining, burning, bursting through: the stars! And you see how they roar their light. Everywhere we look, the complex magic of nature blazes before our eyes."

Then again, maybe it has to do with my own experience over the last semester. Especially the way I perceive myself and others. That's one big thing about the Doctor. Like in the Christmas special last year, when he asks a boy "Who's this?" and the boy answers, "Nobody important." He turns slowly back to the boy and says, "Nobody important? Do you know in nine hundred years of time and space I've never met anyone who wasn't important before."

Maybe it's silly how inspired I get sometimes. Maybe it's silly that a TV show can make me feel better about the world. Maybe I'm just crazy with stress and worry these days, and just looking for an escape. I do think it's ridiculous that I can't articulate my thoughts or feelings about it.

And now I'm watching Journey's End again just because, and I'm going to cry. Wilf is a bamf.

Exam tomorrow. Bedtime now.

ways I waste my time these days:

Doctor Who. It can be funny, serious, sad, and inspiring, so no matter how I feel I can pick an episode and enjoy it. Lately I keep watching Doomsday, Journey's End, and Vincent and the Doctor just because they all make me cry.

youtube. I listen to music ALL the time, or I watch those BBC TV serials that I can't find anywhere else.

reading. I finished two books last week while I should have been writing my English and theology papers.

blog-creeping. people are fasinating.

playing sheepshead. Last time I played I was completely out of it so I lost pretty big, but I'm getting way better at the game so overall it's been worth it.

I'm not getting much homework or studying done.